Light up the Darkness

It's been a week since my last post.. lots going on in life. Mostly fatigue.
I have been pretty tired lately. Sleeping a lot. Spending time with family and friends in the meantime- as I have been able. My mood is improving overall, and I am doing well with some of the ailments. The headache is still ever present- but lets up from time to time, so that it doesn't seem to be a focus to nag at me from the depths of hell. Sometimes its all I can do to force myself to move forward.
I had a good, but rough weekend. The good was time with family and friends. The rough was working through the pain- head and body. I worked two 12 hours shifts. Such is life.

Such is life!

I watched I am legend the other day, for the dozenth time. Is that a word? Dozenth?
The line in the movie toward the end, and again at the end came to me - and sticks with me even now.
Light up the Darkness... made me think of this photo from a few years ago.

also of how we all live in the light, or the darkness- and hide in the shadows.
I most often want to hide in the shadows.
I've lived much of my life this way.

Today, Im ok with a little light from time to time.. but still like the dark.

Ma Fia

Headache today was a midgrade- nothing horrible.
Productivity had its peaks and valleys.
Overall a good day! I feel a little clearer today in way.
It's made me think of a few things... good things...

In the 12th grade, I did my term paper on the Mafia.
I discovered that one possible and likly origin of the word Mafia.. was in the 1400's when a Palermo maiden was being raped by a group of French soldiers, and her mother cried out Ma Fia Ma Fia... and her family came to rescue and lynched the french soldiers who violated her.

It was said then that it seemed that mafia was a group- opposed to the literal translation of the term Ma Fia.

Possible.

I have a great family.

I don't always praise them or see them or spend time with them... but I do. I have a wonderful family.
At home, and at work!

The people who choose to love us and be a part of our circle of support and trust.

That's family.
Blood and love- bound by spirit!

Ma Fia- without whom I could not endure.
I was silent in my illness for a very long time, afraid it was something in my mind- not knowing it was something beyond my control in my head.
Since I have come about about the illness, and shared the details of my struggle, I realize how fortunate I am to have such amazing, loving and strong family and friends in my corner!

Thank God for them! !!